well, we're definitely moving on up. from a tiny hallway closet to a spacious condo. living is now living.
except, being here is bittersweet. it's so still and quiet.. and far from the city life. don't get me wrong, i love having time to myself to reflect and recuperate from being around the hustle and bustle. but at the same time, it makes me feel very lonely. being an extrovert in long island city is gonna be hard!
i can see where luxury can bring a sort of emptiness inside. there's just too much space from here to there, with absolutely nothing and no one to fill it with....
my roommates have more options than i do. they have a special someone to run off with and hold them and tell them secrets and keep them warm during the harsh ny winter.... but me? my only retreat is here! where can i run off to? how warm could a teddy bear keep me?
alone... i've been single for a full year now? (and i'm pretty good at it too.) it's been so so so great. epic! but it is slowly dawning on me that i need something more... perhaps it's the oncoming autumn? i want a dog so badly... for warmth, companionship, and just something to take care of and bring me little bits of happiness each day. if i get a dog, i think i could stay single for a good 4 more years.
(dog > guy)
but then again... (guys=dogs)
so i will accept whichever side of the equation appears first...
hehe... just kidding. i want me a puppy.
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