big fish in big apple

In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord directs his steps. -Proverbs 16:9

Ecclesiastes 12

Remember Your Creator While Young

⁷ Light is sweet,
and it pleases the eyes to see the sun.

⁸ However many years a man may live,
let him enjoy them all.
But let him remember the days of darkness,
for they will be many.
Everything to come is meaningless.

⁹ Be happy, young man, while you are young,
and let your heart give you joy in the days of your youth.
Follow the ways of your heart
and whatever your eyes see,
but know that for all these things
God will bring you to judgment.

¹⁰ So then, banish anxiety from your heart
and cast off the troubles of your body,
for youth and vigor are meaningless.

Be all that You can Be

These days, it's impossible to know whether I'm making decisions based only on what I want for myself. I have to constantly question if I am desiring and asking for God's voice to be heard.. Then I realize that no matter what I do, God always brings me back to where I should be.

As long as I can remember I've always liked singing. I grew up idolizing Mariah, but I never everland wanted to be a professional singer. I just wanted a chance to sing cuz I liked it so much. Recently, I found a perfect place for me to grow and utilize my gifts. Under the wing of Georgia Mike and on the sanctuary stage, I've found the most spiritual growth. Praise and worship is definitely the place where I feel most connected to God.

The other thing that I always wanted to do was play football. I used to run around on the blacktop squeezing my sucky self into lunch time games of flag football. The boys were probably annoyed as heck, but I just wanted to play so badly! I was beside myself when GNC's female turkeybowl team started playing in 2006. I realized that God really opens doors for us...

Lately, little things remind me of how I am getting older and that the people around me are getting married and with child. I don't feel rushed or pressured, but movies like The Blind Side remind me of my deepest desires and inner maternal instincts. Leigh Ann Tuohy is such a kick ass mom and a bad ass woman!!! Such a commanding presence with a big, generous heart. My new idol is a housewife. haha.. I remember in kindergarten, we were asked "What do you want to be when you grow up?" for our memory book. Other kids were saying, "Teacher, nurse, scientist, firefighter..." I am slightly ashamed but not surprised that my answer was, "I want to be a mommy!!.. etc. nonsensical 5 year old reasoning... etc." What can I do? God made me to be a very vocal, football playing, preggo ajumma!

Thinking about all of this just reminds me that God places us where we belong. He knows each of our hearts so well because He created each of us with our own talents and unique dispositions. We find ourselves having affinities towards specific people and specific things all for good reason. I have faith that if I am patient and trust the Lord... He will provide...

discovery

There, the Good Witch of the North, Glinda, advises Dorothy to follow the yellow brick road to the Emerald City and meet the Wizard of Oz, who can return her to Kansas. During her journey, she meets a Scarecrow, a Tin Man and a Cowardly Lion, who join her, hoping to receive what they lack themselves (a brain, a heart and courage, respectively).

I need myself a brain; a really big brain to study and receive my graduate diploma. You need yourself some heart; to be patient and loving in order to grow in all of your relationships, new and old. and You, darling, need you some courage to take on all the wonders of the city and learn to be even more independent woman!

We're off to see the wizard...

Toto....

there's no place like home....
there's nothing like the swooshy tailed greeting of your own dog..
nothing like the smell of your own room...
nothing like the privacy of your own space...
nothing like the comforts of your own korean kitchen...
nothing like the navigation of your own laptop...
nothing like the silly antics of your own parents...
nothing like the familiar flush of your own toilet...
nothing like the flutter of your own Bible pages...
nothing like the fluffiness of your firm bed...
and nothing like actually missing home enough to appreciate all of these things!

which is why i should leave more often.....