hope deferred?

i used to think that by the year of the Dragon (2012), i would have born my first son. of course that means i would have been married in 2010, year of the tiger. 

ah, tiger & dragon, powerful and magical creatures for a powerful family and a magical life...

but alas, it was not in the stars - or God's plans for me.

and here i am, in the greatest city in the world. 26 (soon to be 27) and single. yet oddly, very satisfied and happy.

Lord, you are wise! i am content exactly where i am; with what i am. i cannot imagine a life right now with a husband and son!!! for i am still a child myself~

good-bye Year of the Rabbit (mistakes and hasty decisions)!
welcome Year of the Dragon (wisdom, strength, and fearlessness)!!!

patience is a virtue

This past week, my supervisor referenced Aesop's fable about the tortoise and the hare as an analogy to the slow, but sure progress one can make during therapy - of course one needs to take on the characteristics of the tortoise and not the hare ( i wonder, is being the hare ever beneficial under any circumstance?)

as she told the fable, a lightbulb flickered above my head... all the biggest (and smallest) mistakes that i have made in life have been attributed to my foolish hare-like rashness and overconfidence. oh why! oh why? if only i could have stopped and become more like the tortoise, maybe i could have claimed more victories.

ah, but it is never too late to don a hard shell and slow down in this race called life.

so help me God...

Ecclesiastes 9:11